Getting Inspired: What took me so long?

Finding inspiration can change everything!

I am feeling really emotional tonight, so I just need to blog it out. Weight loss surgery is something I have been thinking about for a while now and it feels so good to finally have that conversation with my doctor and my family. It also feels so good to know that so many of my friends are reading this and following my journey. 

I have "gotten inspired" so many times and for some reason it never sticks. I always start out strong but never really commit and follow through. In doing my research about WLS I found someone that has had the same problem her whole life. She has made over 500 videos talking about her personal journey and I find myself watching her story and just balling my eyes out because I know exactly how she feels! Her name is bandedwendy and she has inspired me to never give up! 

It is funny how we find our inspiration and how certain things can just light a fire inside us. I never liked running but now, watching others' success, that is all I want to do. I just want to get up and run until I can't run anymore. For two nights now Chad and I have gone to the gym, last night to run, tonight to strength train. I know two nights isn't a lot but I have to tell you it is a milestone for me. Just actually going is huge for me, because it means that I started something and I actually did it. I am tired of being fat and lazy. I want to get up and do amazing things. I want to be able to make demands of my body and have it perform. I am tired of walking up my stairs everyday and being out of breath. I am tired of being the fat girl in all the pictures. I am tired of cropping my fat gut out of all my pictures. I am tired of watching my life happen from the sidelines. I am tired of making excuses. I am tired of saying I can't, I won't, I don't. Today I say I CAN! I WILL! I DO! 

I am still in the beginning stages of my weight loss surgery. I am making appts to go to seminars and choose a doctor, then I will have to prepare materials to ask my insurance to cover the surgery, then do whatever pre-op preparation is needed, then finally have surgery. So why start running now? Why not wait til surgery, until I have that last tool to help me? Because I can't! I can't wait anymore! The time is now! I have been waiting on myself my whole life! I have been waiting to be ready! AND I AM SO READY! We all have that moment when it is different; when you just know that enough is enough and you just have to go for it. My whole life I have said "oh I'll do that after I do this" or "I'll start that diet after the holidays" or "I'm too busy. I have more important things to deal with." If you are making excuses I have one question for you: How is that working out for you? 

Some of us are still waiting for our moment and that is fine, but when it hits don't ignore it. Stop wasting your life on the couch. Go out and do amazing things! I am tired of holding me back! This is it! I CAN! I WILL! I DO! WHERE ARE YOU?